A Tired Saturday

I will feel like craps for the rest of the day--I already know from the feeling I had when I first got up this morning.

Went to Lulu's--a northside lounge--last night; being up until 4 in the morning. Three hours later, I dragged myself out to go to work. What a miserable life I have.....working on Saturday once again. Speaking of last night, I dressed down big BIG time for the spot. I literally wear a granny skirt (for comfy purposes) with a shirt and a flip-flop. When I got there, I knew I was unforgivably off. Definitely not a place to dress down because people may think you are picnicing. All I needed last night was a wooden basket filled with muffin, then I would have been completed as a picnic lady.

I will have a get together with a friend from work tonight. Not too sure how I will make it. Maybe a nap or so later on will do.

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After a few drinks, this is what happened a couple of weeks ago. From left G-Lo, Me, Marsha and Jen--a night out at a lived Blues and Jazz bar--the Slippery Noodles in downtown Indianapolis.

After that visit, I went there over and over. Aside from the fact that this bar located across the parking lot from my apartment, the music is awesome!.

It must be the age. I tend to enjoy lived music bar where I can sit back and relax over those crowded dance pubs.

Risks

I don't usually take risks. From my experiences, risks come with prices--some are good, some are bad. Whenever I take a risk, it usually ends badly.

Recently, there have been a few changes in my life. Job has been modified. I will be moving into a new apartment. My brother is coming to the US so soon. I have been thinking about returning to Thailand for good. Most importantly, one of the very few most important persons in my life will no longer fits well in this category. For whatever reason, years ago I have taken this risk and now it does not end up where I thought it would be.

At the same time, there is a new event occurred in my life--very randomly. I've never considered myself a risk taker, but now I wonder if I should.

There is a difference between *want* and *need*....a big difference.

Do I take this shot?

or do I just simply avoid the price that comes with risks by walking away now?

True Love

I believe most of us are blind and are more selfish when we are in love. When we are loving somebody, we want all of them. We want another person to be who we want them to be, we want them to act certain ways and ultimately, to love us as much as we love them. We are upset and disappointed when things don't go certain ways. Many times, we rely on another person way too much and having expectations that are not approachable.



Is it really practical?



I took a philosophy class when I was back in college. The professor talked about love. What is love? and what about unconditional love?



He says, true love must be unconditional. Love with no expectations. Love with feeling that we don't need anything in return. The true love is a feeling that we should be happy; simply just because the one you love is happy. True love does not expect ownership. True love is giving, regardless. True love is forgiving. We don't need to have another person to be ours to love them.

10 Thoughts of Life by Me # 1

1) Treat people with respect and they will give you the same.
2) What goes around, comes around. It's just a matter of time.
3) When you treat people like shit, they will probably do the same to you.
4) Nobody can dictate how you are going to run your life, if you don't want them around, just tell them.
5) Family should be the most important thing in your life because at the end of the day, nobody really gives a shit about you except your own family.
6) Don't take loved ones for granted, they will eventually give up on you.
7) People who bitch, nag and complain at you are those who actually care.
8) If you care about someone, don't lose their trust. Once the trust is broken, it takes a long time to earn it back and you don't even know whether you will be able to earn it back EVER.
9) White lies are at times essential. It's just if you need to use one, make sure it is for a good cause.
10) You can make mistakes and many of them. You just need to be able to suck it up and learn from your mistakes.

The Doggy Obsession

For over the years, I've always wanted a dog and the only reason I don't have one yet because I just want to make sure I don't turn to be that kind of people I hate--those that buy a dog and are unable to commit the it. All puppies are cute, but I do not want the cuteness to blind my judgement, so I'm still thinking. Since I've been thinking, now it turns to be my obsession. I happen to prefer bigger dogs, so I need to think a little harder I guess since I don't own a house. So space is an issue. In response to my obsession, in the next few days, I will be posting pictures of dogs I consider. A few of them.

Photos: Bernese Mountain Dogs