Confuse?

Yesterday, one of my friends complained about not being able to do what he wants to do due to obligations in life. He feels that he is a 30-something-year-old with no stability in life, comparing with those in the same age. He has no money, no job he loves and no one to settle with. Basically, the guy is damn depressed. He said he envies me that I seem to get it all together.

Oh c'mon, I don't get it all together. I still feel that I don't even know what I'm doing. If I look back several years ago, I don't think at this point, I've achieved what I have planned to do anyway. But I told him, I am still ok with where I am though. If I start comparing my life with someone else , I'd never be happy. To me, each and every person has their own way of running their life--some may wanna be rich, some may wanna travel and on and on. Mine is to sit and see what tomorrow has to offer, and that I'm ok with it. I think everyone entitles to choose what they wanna do, but from my observation, people complain too much of unfulfilling life, but choose not to take actions. Some people care too much about tomorrow, but don't really live their life for today. Frankly, you just don't know when you are gonna die and that, it can be tomorrow. Jeez, I'd regret my ass off if I only lived for the day after and happened to die on that day. So since I've turned 25 years ago, I start living strictly for 'today' and see where life takes me.

QUOTE: "You can't make a diamond. You have to go and find them."

New Quote of the Day

"Don't leave the one you love for the one you like because the one you like will eventually leave you for the one they love."

I know I know. It sounds pretty cheesy and that I hate cheesy stuff, but hey this works well with not only for relationships, friendships, but also work or anything else. Big difference between "love" and 'like." Same goes to difference between "need" and want."

Life after Hearing, Literally!

It's been a little over a month since my ear surgery, everything is better than ever. Looking back, I had no idea my hearing was so severe until a few days I walked out of the surgery. My sister had begged me to turn the TV volume down, my boyfriend had told me he had already spoken loud enough, people had told me they were almost yelling at me on the phone, still, I didn't realize how bad my hearing was. I was in denial until today. Everything sounds crisp and clear with only one good ear. I feel that I can hear everything. I still cannot imagine what I was missing in the past and how frustrated I was. I think the biggest problem with hearing loss is inner frustration due to lower self esteem and confidence.

What I have got from the surgery: 1) hot doctor 2) better well..much better hearing 3) a piece of titanium in my ear, which may go off while passing the security station at the airport (see picture on the left. Yah...that's it, but the real one is much smaller. Imagine that lands inside my ear.)

Some of you might find this funny, but really, if you haven't lost your hearing yet. Then don't. Now, I will wait for another year. I will do my left ear as well. I bet by the end of next year. My hearing will be all surrounded sound.

Is the Business-Minded Required?

Okay...I'm really into restaurant business at this point. Someone once said to me that this kind of industry is basically a 'high risk, high return' kind of thing and that requires long hours, especially during the first year. Am I gonna be able to put up with it? The first restaurant I worked for was actually the better one in term of food and their authenticity. But co-workers and their system suck so bad. I am always the kind of person that working environment is very very important to me and that if I'm not happy (even if the place is the hippiest one in town) I have gotta say goodbye. That's why I left. The second restaurant offers a kind of Thai food that has been infused to suit American customers. I'm not saying it's bad, but for Thais, this place might not remind them of home. The restaurant also has an extensive collection of liquors and people are so friendly, funny and easy to get along with. I am happy, so I stay.

Since there is a bar section, I've always loved to hang out in there when getting a chance. I am staying for the sake of happiness and get to know how the place is operated. One thing I have learned so far: you really need to have at least one employee you can trust. Everything is business and costs money.

PS: Watching Laguna Beach while writing this, what a stupid show!

The Sunday

Football Notes: Indianapolis Colts beats Washington Redskins 36-22 at RCA Dome.
Steelers lost 41-38 to the Falcons in Atlanta.

Spent pretty much the whole Sunday watching football. Never thought I finally have become a football freak!

A Disco in Life

Man...last night was fun. It's been a while since I last hung out with some Thais, and yes, a few glasses of Morgan's and Coke helped. It started off around 5pm when arriving at a Thai restaurant on the west side of town to work (well to be exact, to weigh whether I should be in this industry after all.) We had live music played by a local band on the weekend nights, so that spiked up the whole place. It was a slow Friday night according to everybody, so after everything was cooling down, and the band left, we started our own little Thai-wanna-sing karaoke contest.

I told Sam that I love singing (without being afraid it would literally freak every single customer away and they would never return,) but the requirement is: if I am not wasted, that will never happen and that I don't plan to be wasted anytime soon. So we sent our Laotian Dare Devil Chef (P'Bua) up on the stage. Talking about P'Bua, he was pretty sure he wasn't gonna sing tonight while we were all still in the kitchen. He kept saying.."no no no...nothing can make me do that. You will never see me sing." Several cups of beer later, he volunteerly jumped on the stage, and never let the mic go. Last night, we have discovered a hidden star. This guy is damn good. I wonder what the hell he is doing being a chef. We were hanging out in there until pretty late, and everyone has to work today (except me, hahaha.) I wonder how in the world they are going to make it through today. I assume anyone visits the restaurant today will spot some half drunks running around in the kitchen.

Note: I just realize that since I haven't kept up with Thai music in the past...well..at least 4 years. I can't sing new Thai songs. I don't even know them anymore. Also to sing in English? That would be a shame of the family and peers. Pretty sad, huh?

Dead Rising

Okay...it is hard to admit--I am officially now a VDO game addict (the kind of human being I am scared to turn into,) but to look at the bright side. I am only addicted to this one game 'Dead Rising' by Xbox. Since Dan has bought this game, I have been since a wuss. No I never want to play, but watch. It is strange though because by watching someone else playing this game, it gets you hooked. Dead Rising is about this hot photojournalist Frank West (no no no not because it has anything to do with photojournalism makes me like the game)--a hard-edged dude hell bent on investigating the mystery at Willamette Mall in Colorado. Everyone, well almost, in the town have turned Zombie--some slow, some fast. Those zombies are scary as hell. Thank to technology nowadays, those dead beats look damn real!!! (okay! this gives you another reason why I don't wanna play, but only watch.) Besides that, I think what makes this game super cool to play is that everythings goes. You can kill Zombies by using anything--phones, pipe, baseball bats and pretty much everything you see. What make this game interesting is that Frank is not like any other kinds of main charactors in other games. He is not born a great fighter. There are skills he must learn, and once he kills more zombies, passes to next levels, reads more books and so on, killing skills will be built. This takes time. At first, this game looks just like any other killing game, but since everything goes, it gives you chances to do whatever the hell you wanna do. They give you timelines. Within those 72 hours, you have missions. You can do it, but not required to do it. But see, each solved mission is a key, leading to answer all the questions the town has. Man! I have gotta tell Dan to play again! Love it...Now...I sound just like one of them.

NOTE: For those who plan to buy a VDO game, Xbox 360 is worth the price. You will see the differences in graphics, shapeness and etc.

Mixed Kids

Today, I went over to another restaurant by my place to go over of what I would be doing after work at this restaurant. I walked by the kitchen area and saw a cook (from the distance, he looked white to me.) with tattoos and numbers of piercings standing by the stove. I expect a Thai restautant's chef to be Thai--if not--Laos or Cambodian...something like that. But this guy, he is something far from Thai cuisine.

Didn't get a chance to say anything yet. Sak, the restaurant's owner, introduced me to the tattooed guy, Jake, Sak's half brother. Jake is a half Thai-half white american. Sak and Jake share the same mother. Sak is a son from their mom's first marriage with his father--a pure Thai. Looking at Jake, I thought, "wow! your are so lucky having a white dad. See, I don't know what he looks like, but as a result, you and Sak don't even look alike---not at all." No, I just thought, I didn't say it. Here is some thoughts-----Sak is 40-something pure Thai guy with tan complexion, bald, chubby and stalky. Jake is a tall 30-something with really dark brown eyes, hair and a caucasian face. What an opposite. All those mixed kids are so lucky.

Click

I watched this movie 'Click' on DVD today. It is one of those good movies deserved to be seen by everybody. From what I know, it isn't a big-hit-billboard movie or anything like that (especially look on the right, the movie poster/DVD cover suck!), but I love its content. Adam Sandler plays an architech, Newman, who tries to jungle between work and family. As busy as he can be, Newman struggles to get promoted. He works hard to climb to the top, but finds little time left for his family. One day, Newman found this universal remote control--it can be used to stop, rewind and fast forward his life. One thing leads to another. To make a long story short, this movie successfully sends me a message about life, and how you should live for the moment because today will turn tomorrow, and that you cannot go back in time to fix things. It delivers me a message that you should appreciate things you are having--millions little things in your life will mean something to you in the future. This movie is great!!! I didn't expect it to be this good when I first rented it. Go grab one for your own and watch when you get a chance.

So today, after watching Click, I have been feeling gracious all day. I have turned to be a humble gal for a day. Thinking about buying this movie to fill my collection at home to watch when I have a down day. Tip for the day: Don't let DVD cover fool you. Some covers.

Blank Day

I did a little bit of everything today.

Woke up at 10:15 am, showered, went to eat Chinese with Dan, came home by 1 pm, and started watching football games since then. (Note: Steelers beated Kansan City so badly this evening.)

Talked to the restaurant owner about not returning for good. Tried to explain as humanly as possible of why, but it doesn't seem to go through her head, which is understandable. Some people's mental intelligence is just not capable. (Note: She still owes me $100, but pretends she knows nothing about it. Should I try to get the money?)

Ate so much today: Chinese buffet (lots,) 5 pieces of giant cookies, 5 spring rolls, 2 bites of rice, 1 big bowl of mango ice cream, 1 big bowl of boiled soy beans, 1 box of raisin, 1 candy bar......I don't think my stomach can no longer hold my eating habit.